Shelter and the Void

Something about travel both fills a void and creates one.

pololū valley overlook, big island of hawai'i

pololū valley overlook, big island of hawai

First, the Void

The void that is filled is the one that yearns for new places…new spaces… unfamiliar experiences. It is a bucket with holes in it, though, and sometimes the holes are small and recent adventures retain and percolate, only slowly seeping away; sometimes though they flow like water through fully opened floodgates and disappear.

lapakahi hut

lapakahi hut

The void that is created is the void of loss: all loss, our losses, all time gone by. Visiting historical sites that were once thriving, if struggling, communities, now earmarks on downturned corners of a tour guide and casual photo opp’s. Their significance is discernible but not entirely tangible. (Who can truly imagine the essence of a place a hundred years after its demise?)

The void is history. The void is that desire to know but to be unable to grasp.

lapakahi - ancient hawaiian fishing village, Big Island of Hawai'i

lapakahi - ancient hawaiian fishing village, Big Island of Hawai

Onward to Shelter

The wind that blows today on the north Kohala Coast of Hawai’i is the same blustery wind that blew on the Hawaiians of the fishing village of Lapakahi centuries ago. These days, folks visiting Lapakahi get back into their climate-controlled cars when the wind gets strong and head back to their hotel, the beach…whatever’s next on the list.

There’s a certain hunger we all have to know what it would be like to not have that option. To only have the hut with pili grass roof to guard against the elements. To have to build and maintain and wonder if our skills are solid enough to keep our walls sturdy enough. We’d like to know if we could do it, but most of us don’t really want to find out if we can.

wind in hala tree, lapakahi, HI

wind in hala tree, lapakahi, HI

Our Shelter

This is where Arvin and I stayed on our overnight visit to Hawi. The Kohala Village Inn is affordable and nice. Classic old Hawaiiana. The real article. It’s a little bit noisy at times, but that’s what you get for staying in a village inn in the middle of an old, once-sugarland-now-artsy village on the green slopes of the Kohala coast. If you stay there, spend a few minutes and talk story with Annie, who’s been working the desk for 7 years. She’s a delight. Genuine. Born and raised.

If you go to Hawi, you must have dinner at Bamboo Restaurant & Gallery. Or lunch. They’re closed Sunday dinner and possibly Monday.

Kohala Village Inn, Hawi, HI

Kohala Village Inn, Hawi, HI

The Novelist’s Due – #3

Chapter 11

I figured out what to do about Chapter 11. No, not my finances—although they could use a serious case of debt restructuring and re-organization. No, I’m referring to Chapter 11 of Hugo.

As I was reading through the mss on its first full reading, I realized that the substory I’d been referencing all throughout the story went too far once I got to this point. Chapters 1 thru 10 read well, and from my vantage point they’re ‘finished’. But it became obvious that I was writing Chapter 11 as if the substory was the ultimate destination of the book. It’s not. It’s an interesting story in and of itself, so I’ll use it elsewhere. (It probably merits its own vehicle anyway, if I’m to do the characters justice.) Also, not only did I realize that the substory was too much, there was a critical discussion that I was avoiding—a realm I was lazily glossing over and ignoring. Perhaps that was the purpose of derailing myself with the substory: to avoid the more critical discussion that had to be had with the main character’s story line.

So it’s back to work… excise the substory, summarize where needed, backfill with the critical discussion and put in some word putty around the new sections.

Chapter 11

Chapter 11

Second rejection of the Season

I’ve written a short piece I refer to as ‘Dearth.’ With an ‘r’. Dearth. Not death. It’s a good piece: 4,600 words told from the perspective of a character who had been lingering undefined in the back of my mind for about 15 years and then suddenly, as I struggled with start after start of the story, came into being. It’s always a wonderful moment when a character snaps into life, when you all of a sudden realize who they are and know how to tell their story.

The story has been farmed out to a couple publications. The first recipient, Glimmer Train, rejected it in a rather oblique way: in a mass email promoting the publication and thanking me (ie, everyone on distribution) for writing and submitting, and to please write again…oh, and be sure to subscribe if you don’t already.

Well yes, ok. Of course.

In these days of dwindling resources, high submission volume and understaffing, it’s not uncommon to receive no formal rejection. It’s kind of like applying for a job on craigslist or some other resume-posting site: your submission falls into a black hole on the other end of which resides subject matter for a potentially engaging if disturbing documentary. It still smarts a little, though, to have to go to the publisher’s website and look at the list of 30 other writers whose work was accepted and lauded with at minimum an honorable mention while yours—nope…And you’re left muttering to yourself, But it was good…

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Good morning, sunshine

We begin and end with a contemplation: how to elucidate the delicate pleasures of half a bottle of decent Sauvignon Blanc followed by a Valium… Just one pill, mind you. And just before bedtime. The purpose of which was to chase away the demon anxieties that crowded the bed the night before.

bed in the a.m.

Today I awoke with a sense of lightness and delight — that blessed little diazepam worked its magic last night without leaving me with a headache or laziness the way some of daddy’s other little helpers can. The wretch of bad sleep that dominated the night before slipped away last night, leaving only lingering sulfite twitters on the back of my tongue as the sun rose this Monday morning in bright brilliant stripes.

As Meryl Streep so magnificently emoted in The Devil Wears Prada: “That’s all.”

Just wanted to mention it.